Whenever we are told to do something we don't like or find it difficult, our response will depend on who is telling us to do it.
If it's from someone that we can ignore, then it will be a flat "No!" and it won't bother us too much.
But if it's from our superior or from someone that we can't say "No" to, then we will either try to think of a good reason to get out of it or to try to buy time and hope that something will change and we will be let off.
For Ananias in the 1st reading, when God told him to go to Saul, he gave reasons, and they are valid reasons, why it was better that he don't go.
But God insisted that he must go all the same, and so Ananias went. After all, it would be better not to defy God and he being a disciple, all the more he had to obey.
But that's what a disciple is all about - to obey the Master even though the task may be difficult or even dangerous.
Ananias had to live up to his own words "Here I am, Lord" when God called out to him.
His mission was to go to Saul to show him how to respond to the Lord and also to testify to Saul's conversion.
So to will be our mission as the Lord calls out to us. We are to show others how to respond to the Lord. It would be difficult and dangerous to live up to those words "Here I am, Lord" but the blessings we get in return will tell us that it is the best response.
But that's what a disciple is all about - to obey the Master even though the task may be difficult or even dangerous.
Ananias had to live up to his own words "Here I am, Lord" when God called out to him.
His mission was to go to Saul to show him how to respond to the Lord and also to testify to Saul's conversion.
So to will be our mission as the Lord calls out to us. We are to show others how to respond to the Lord. It would be difficult and dangerous to live up to those words "Here I am, Lord" but the blessings we get in return will tell us that it is the best response.