Wednesday, April 2, 2025
4th Week of Lent, Thursday, 03-04-2025
Tuesday, April 1, 2025
4th Week of Lent, Wednesday, 02-04-2025
Monday, March 31, 2025
4th Week of Lent, Tuesday, 01-04-2025
Sunday, March 30, 2025
4th Week of Lent, Monday, 31-03-2025
Saturday, March 29, 2025
4th Sunday of Lent, Year C, RCIA 2nd Scrutiny
1 Sam 16:1, 6-7, 10-13 / Ephesians 5:8-14 / John 9:1-41 (Year A readings)
When it comes to the sensitive and fragile parts of our body, we will certainly take extra care of them.
So, to protect the soles of our feet, we have footwear.
And if our skin is sensitive to strong sunlight, we can wear protective clothing and apply skin lotion.
But there is a rather sensitive and fragile part of our body that is often left unprotected and exposed.
It is none other than our eyes.
For those who don't need to wear spectacles, then the eyes are quite exposed and vulnerable.
On the other hand, there are those who wear dark glasses for one reason or another.
There is something about our eyes that is necessary in our function as a human being, and in our relationship as a person.
Our sight is one of our senses, and we use our eyes to see, and then we judge, and then we act.
But there is something more about our eyes. The eyes are the windows to the soul.
We look into the eyes of a person whom we are in a comfortable relationship.
But we avoid eye contact with a person whom we feel uneasy with, or that we just want to keep a distance from.
The gospel began by saying that as Jesus went along, He saw a man who was blind from birth.
Whenever the Scriptures mentions a seemingly ordinary sentence, like the verse earlier, then usually a divine revelation is about to happen.
When the gospel mentions that Jesus saw the blind man, that also brings us back to the 1st reading.
In the 1st reading, God says this to Samuel: God does not see as man sees. Man looks at appearances, but the Lord looks at heart.
Jesus saw the heart of the blind man, and He saw a man of faith and courage, despite his blindness.
And indeed, after when the man received his sight, he bore witness to Jesus and spoke up for Him, despite being ridiculed and rejected.
As the RCIA Elects enter deeper into the period of Purification and Enlightenment with the Second Scrutiny, the Lord is also looking into their hearts, and the Lord is also looking into our hearts.
But the Lord looks into our hearts to strengthen our faith and courage, so that we can purify our hearts and to make a home in our hearts for Jesus.
And the Lord also looks into our hearts to enlighten us, so that with our hearts that are filled with light, we will be able to see clearly.
To see clearly is to see as God sees, and not as man sees. Man looks at appearances, but the Lord looks at the heart.
So, with our eyes purified and enlightened, let us look at our own hearts.
And may we look from the things of earth, to the things of above, where God is.
May we see clearly, may we act wisely, and may we be holy.
4th Sunday of Lent, Year C, 30.03.2025
Joshua 5:9-12 / 2 Cor 5:17-21 / Luke 15:1-3, 11-32
Whenever we think about jewellery, a few things will come to mind.
One of which is the precious metals that make up most of the jewellery.
And these precious metals are mostly gold and silver. So, there are earrings, bracelets, necklace, rings and brooches that are made from these precious metals.
Besides that, there are also jewellery made with precious stones, and it is usually diamonds, as well as other precious stones.
These precious metals and stones are not just valuable, they are also beautiful.
But in the original form, they look far from precious or beautiful.
For example, gold and silver are mined from the Earth. They go through a long process of purification before becoming precious and beautiful.
Similarly for diamonds, they are also mined from the Earth.
In the raw form, they are rough stones, which will go through a process of cutting and polishing before becoming valuable and beautiful.
The gospel parable, which is also known as the parable of a prodigal son, began on a rather tensed situation.
The tax collectors and sinners were all seeking the company of Jesus to hear what He had to say to them.
The Pharisees and the scribes complained about Jesus being in the company of sinners, and so He told them this parable.
The parable touches on family relationships and the main focus is on that younger son.
That younger son was rough enough to ask for his share of the inheritance, and then went on to squander it away in a far off country.
He had to go through a cutting and grinding experience of hunger and humiliation that made him come to his senses.
And he had the humility and the sensibility to go back to his father in repentance and ask for forgiveness.
There is no doubt that the younger son was a pain for the father, as well as for the elder brother.
But pain can be transformed into something precious.
It made that prodigal son realized how precious is his father's love for him.
As for the father, the pain of his son leaving him transformed it into a precious lesson for us.
So out of pain, something precious can come about.
This is what the parable is teaching us, and this is also the reality of how those precious pearls come about.
We may know that pearls are produced by oysters, and those pearls are produced because the oyster experience some kind of pain, or because it was irritated in some way.
A pearl is actually a healed wound. It is formed when an irritant, like a grain of sand or a parasite, enters into the shell of the oyster.
To protect itself, the oyster secretes layers of a smooth, shiny substance called nacre, coating the intruder over time.
Layer by layer, this process continues until a beautiful pearl is formed.
So, those beautiful pearls are a product of pain.
It is about transforming something unwanted into something precious and beautiful.
This also brings to mind the pain and the suffering of Jesus that He went through for us.
By His wounds we are healed, and His pain brought about the precious love of God for us.
Let us put the pains of our lives into the hands of Jesus, so that He can transform those pains into beautiful pearls of blessings for us.
Friday, March 28, 2025
3rd Week of Lent, Saturday, 29-03-2025
Thursday, March 27, 2025
3rd Week of Lent, Friday, 28-03-2025
Wednesday, March 26, 2025
3rd Week of Lent, Thursday, 27-03-2025
Tuesday, March 25, 2025
3rd Week of Lent, Wednesday, 26-03-2025
Monday, March 24, 2025
Annunciation of the Lord, Tuesday, 25-03-2025
Sunday, March 23, 2025
3rd Week of Lent, Monday, 24-03-2025
Saturday, March 22, 2025
3rd Sunday of Lent, Year C, 23.03.2025
Exodus 3:1-8, 13-15 / 1 Cor 10:1-6, 10-12 / Luke 13:1-9
There is one common characteristic in all living beings.
And that is all living beings can feel pain.
This is most evident in human beings and animals.
Plants are living things and they may not feel pain like the sentient beings.
But something usually happens when a branch or stem is cut off from a plant or tree.
That part of the plant or tree oozes out some sap or liquid.
We may wonder if that is a sign of pain from the plant or tree.
Generally speaking, pain is a sign that is calling for attention.
So, if it is physical pain, then medical consultation is needed.
And there are also other pains like mental or psychological pains.
It is said that when we can feel pain, we are alive. And when we can feel other people's pain, then we are human. (Leo Tolstoy)
So, as much as we want to avoid pain, yet, pain makes us human, and enables us to empathize and have compassion for others who are in pain.
In the gospel parable, the owner of the vineyard told the gardener to cut down that fig tree that did not bear fruit for 3 years.
But the gardener felt for that fig tree and asked for one more year.
In a way, that parable tells us that God is like the gardener who feels our pain.
Jesus was sent to save us and heal the pain caused by our sins.
As for us, we can choose to ignore, or to pay attention to our physical and spiritual pains.
To ignore is to be indignant and to even ask for trouble.
To pay attention to our pains would make us alive and also to be attentive to what the Lord is showing and telling us.
And when we heed the call to repentance, then we are also becoming more human.
We begin to feel the pain of the faults and failings of others, and to feel compassion for them.
And we have also become like the gardener in the parable; we will also pray and plead for mercy and forgiveness for others and especially for sinners.
In doing so, we unite ourselves to Jesus in His pain and suffering on the Cross, to save humanity from their sins.
3rd Sunday of Lent, Year C (RCIA 1st Scrutiny), 23.03.2025
Exodus 17:3-7 / Romans 5:1-2, 5-8 / John 4:5-42 (Year A readings)
There are photographs of the planet Earth taken from outer space.
These photos show a beautiful planet with bluish and whitish shades.
The reason for this is that our Earth is covered by a large amount of water. About 70% of the Earth’s surface is covered with water, which gives it a beautiful appearance from outer space.
Indeed, our Earth, the blue planet, is beautiful because of the water in it.
Not only is the Earth beautiful because of the water in it, the human body has about 70% of water, and so, human beings, like the Earth, are beautiful.
Water is a common substance, and yet, it is so vital for life.
Water washes and cleanses, it also refreshes and hydrates the human body.
Besides that, other interesting and fascinating aspects of water is that it can exist in three states, that is, as a liquid, as a gas and as ice.
And water is also flexible in that it takes on the shape of the vessel that it is poured into.
Indeed, there are many lessons about life that we can learn from water.
In the gospel, Jesus began conversation with a Samaritan woman by asking for water to drink.
And from her understanding of water as vital for life, Jesus then talked about living water.
From her need of water to quench her thirst, she became interested in the living water that will give her eternal life.
On this third Sunday of Lent, the RCIA Elect begin the period of purification and enlightenment, by reflecting on the physical and spiritual meaning of water as they prepare for baptism.
They will be baptized with water which will wash away their sins.
The waters of Baptism is also a living water that will give them eternal life.
For the Elect, and for us the baptized, we reflect deeper on this common substance of water, as well as Baptism.
At Baptism, we become like who we are baptized in, and we are baptized in Christ, and therefore we become like Christ.
We also become like what we are baptized with, and we are baptized with water, and so, we become like water.
We become not like ordinary water, we become like living water.
Like water that takes the form of the vessel that it is in, we are like living water that will flow to where and to who Jesus will send us to.
Also, in the encounter between a stone and water, the lesson that we learn is that the water will prevail.
The flowing water will smoothen out the rough edges of the stone, and even make the stone beautiful.
May we let the Living Water from Jesus Christ flow into our minds and hearts, and quench the thirst of our lives.
And may the Living Water from Jesus Christ cleanse and purify us and also enlighten us.
May we see that in the soft and gentle water is the power of the love of God, which will forgive us, heal us, sanctify us and make us into living waters for others.
Friday, March 21, 2025
2nd Week of Lent, Saturday, 22-03-2025
Thursday, March 20, 2025
2nd Week of Lent, Friday, 21-03-2025
Wednesday, March 19, 2025
2nd Week of Lent, Thursday, 20-03-2025
Tuesday, March 18, 2025
St. Joseph, Spouse of the BVM, Wednesday, 19-03-2025
Monday, March 17, 2025
2nd Week of Lent, Tuesday, 18-03-2025
Sunday, March 16, 2025
2nd Week of Lent, Monday, 17-03-2025
Saturday, March 15, 2025
2nd Sunday of Lent, Year C, 16.03.2025
Genesis 15:5-12, 17-18 / Philippians 3:17 – 4:1 / Luke 9:28-36
There are quite a few occasions that occur annually.
We will surely know what they are because it usually comes with a public holiday.
So, that will be New Year's day, Chinese New Year (and that's two public holidays), Hari Raya Puasa (and that is coming up soon), etc.
We can't miss those occasions because it will come with a public holiday, and we like holidays because we don't have to go to school or to work.
But other than those public occasions, there are also personal occasions that come about annually.
So, there are birthdays and wedding anniversaries. Whether we celebrate those occasions or not, we will still remember those dates because those are our personal dates.
But it might be a bit more difficult to remember other people's dates, like the birthday of the spouse, and that can mean some trouble.
Or, the date of the wedding anniversary, and that can be quite embarrassing, especially when obvious hints are given.
Today's Gospel is also known as the gospel of the Transfiguration.
And we may also notice that every year on the 2nd Sunday of Lent, the Gospel reading is about the Transfiguration.
Adding on to that, the Feast of the Transfiguration is also celebrated on the 6th of August in the Church calendar.
That is telling us something, and that is, the Transfiguration is an important event in the life of Jesus.
On that mountain, the glory of Jesus was revealed, that He is the beloved Son of God.
The presence of Moses and Elijah witnessed to Jesus, that He is the Divine Law Giver and the Prophetic Voice of God.
As for the disciples, Peter, James and John, they were overwhelmed with awe.
Peter said something about building three tents, but he actually didn't know what he was saying.
But whatever it is, the Transfiguration of Jesus on that mountain was an experience and an encounter that was seared deep into the hearts of the disciples.
They didn't talk about it then, but later on, they will speak about it as it was an occasion that pointed to Jesus as the Divine Son of God.
So, why is the Transfiguration being mentioned during the season of Lent and again in August.
Well, for the RCIA Elect, the season of Lent is the period of their final preparation for baptism at Easter.
This Sunday’s Gospel of the Transfiguration leads them to reflect on how the Lord Jesus has revealed Himself to them in their faith journey.
There was a sharing by one of the Elect which is rather amusing and amazing.
In her childhood days, one of her Catholic relatives brought her to a Catholic Church, but only for a few occasions, and that is to pray for the exams.
That was her first encounter with the Catholic Church. Later on, she got married and she didn't think much about God or about going to Church.
And then her husband injured his back and was bedridden for a few months.
She was so stressed as there was no cure despite having treatment after treatment.
One morning, when she was about to go marketing, one of her friends called her up. She shared with that friend about her husband's condition, and that friend told her to pray to Jesus.
She asked her friend how to pray, and that friend told her to look up at the sky and say: Jesus, please help me, please cure my husband.
Well, she did that, she looked up in the sky, and said: Jesus, please help me, please cure my husband.
And then she carried on with her marketing. That very afternoon, when she was preparing dinner, she thought that she saw her husband walking slowly from the bedroom to the toilet.
She was very surprised and amazed, and her husband slowly recovered and was able to walk.
But what was even more surprising was that, when asked who was that friend who told her to look at the sky to pray to Jesus, she couldn't remember.
How could she not remember who it is?
But in life, there are many experiences and encounters that are beyond explanation.
We can call it a mystery, but that is how God reveals Himself to us, just like how Jesus revealed Himself to His disciples in the Transfiguration.
On this second Sunday of Lent, we and the RCIA Elect are led to reflect and recall how God has revealed Himself to us.
It may not be a spectacular experience or a dramatic encounter.
But certainly, God is speaking to us through Jesus His Son.
May we listen, may we believe, and may our faith be strengthened.
Friday, March 14, 2025
1st Week of Lent, Saturday, 15-03-2025
Thursday, March 13, 2025
1st Week of Lent, Friday, 14-03-2025
Wednesday, March 12, 2025
1st Week of Lent, Thursday, 13-03-2025
Tuesday, March 11, 2025
1st Week of Lent, Wednesday, 12-03-2025
Monday, March 10, 2025
1st Week of Lent, Tuesday, 11-03-2025
Sunday, March 9, 2025
1st Week of Lent, Monday, 10-03-2025
Saturday, March 8, 2025
1st Sunday of Lent, Year C, 09.03.2025
Deuteronomy 216:4-10 / Romans 10:8-13 / Luke 4:1-13
We may have felt that many things have happened rather quickly since the start of the year.
There was the Chinese New Year that came and went, and it was not that long ago.
And then the season of Lent has begun with Ash Wednesday.
Now that the season of Lent has begun, we may be thinking of what to do and how to do it.
So, we might be thinking about making more time for prayer, maybe waking up earlier in the morning to pray.
We may be thinking of going for some weekday Masses, besides the Sunday masses.
We may be thinking of going for the Stations of the Cross every Friday of Lent.
And then there is also the practice of fasting and abstinence on Fridays, or we may want to do more for season of Lent.
Whatever it may be, the season of Lent seems to be like a busy spiritual season with many spiritual practices to consider.
But before we think of what we want to do for the season of Lent, let us take a look at Jesus in today's Gospel.
Filled with the Holy Spirit, Jesus left the Jordan, but He didn't immediately launch into His mission of salvation.
Rather, He was led by the Holy Spirit through the wilderness, being tempted there by the devil for 40 days.
It seems like Jesus didn't decide what to do after His baptism. It was the Spirit who decided for Him.
And so, the Spirit led Jesus to the wilderness, or, also known as the desert.
The desert is a harsh place, where hunger and thirst are felt to the extremes, and that is nothing that can be done about it.
Besides, there's also nothing else to do.
And as if that is not terrible enough, it was also there that the devil tempted Jesus.
So, it was a rough start for Jesus, firstly going to a very uncomfortable place, and then being unsettled by the devil.
The Church began the season of Lent on Ash Wednesday which was a few days ago.
On that day, the Church use an ordinary, or a rather useless substance, to mark our foreheads, and that is ashes.
Ashes are messy, and they can also cause irritation to our skin.
The ashes are marked on our foreheads to remind us of three realities, and that is our frailty, our mortality and our eternity.
With the ashes, we are reminded of our frailty, that we are weak human beings.
We feel pain, we fall ill, we worry about our problems and difficulties, and we get anxious about losing what we consider as precious.
The ashes also remind us of our mortality. There's nothing as certain as death.
One of the phrases that is used when the ashes are marked on our foreheads is this: Remember, you are dust, and unto dust you shall return.
Yes, returning to dust is the stark reality and the certainty, and that is nothing that we can do about it, nor can we avoid it.
But in our frailty and mortality, God promises an eternity of glory for those who hope and trust in Him.
Ash Wednesday reminds us that everything will pass.
Our hunger will pass, our wealth and our health will pass, our success and our failures will also pass.
But the season of Lent makes us pause, and pause for 40 days.
Yes, we pause to pray about our frailty and our mortality.
In our frailty and mortality, may we also come to see eternity.
And we also see that everything will pass away, but God will not pass away.
And when we put our hope and trust in God, He will also not let us pass away.
God will raise us up from the ashes of our frailty and mortality, and He will lead us into eternity.
We just need to pause, and with prayer, we will see how God is doing this for us.
Friday, March 7, 2025
Saturday after Ash Wednesday, 08-03-2025
Thursday, March 6, 2025
Friday after Ash Wednesday, 06-03-2025
Thursday after Ash Wednesday, 06-03-2025
Tuesday, March 4, 2025
Ash Wednesday, 05-03-2025
Monday, March 3, 2025
8th Week, Ordinary Time, Tuesday, 04-03-2025
8th Week, Ordinary Time, Monday, 03-03-2025
Sunday, March 2, 2025
8th Ordinary Sunday, Year C, 02.03.2025
Saturday, March 1, 2025
7th Week, Ordinary Time, Saturday, 01-03-2025
Thursday, February 27, 2025
7th Week, Ordinary Time, Friday, 28-02-2025
7th Week, Ordinary Time, Thursday, 27-02-2025
Tuesday, February 25, 2025
7th Week, Ordinary Time, Wednesday, 26-02-2025
Monday, February 24, 2025
7th Week, Ordinary Time, Tuesday, 25-02-2025
Sunday, February 23, 2025
7th Week, Ordinary Time, Monday, 24-02-2025
Saturday, February 22, 2025
7th Ordinary Sunday, Year C, 23.02.2025
1 Sam 26:2, 7-9, 12-13, 22-23 / 1 Cor 15:45-49 / Luke 6:27-38
In the Bible, the book of Genesis described the story of creation.
God created the world and everything in it in six days. With each day of creation, the world was getting more and more beautiful.
Finally, on the 6th day, when God created man in His image, God saw that His creation was very good.
Indeed, all creation is very good as it reflects the beauty and the goodness of God.
But when man sinned against God, the image of man became disfigured and distorted.
And man's relationship with God and the rest of creation also became disfigured and distorted.
Though disfigured and distorted, mankind and creation still retained the beauty and the goodness of God.
When we look at nature, it shows us what life is about and also who we are.
For example, life is like a river that is long and winding. And so is life; life is also not a straight and clear journey.
Another image from nature is this: The branch that bears the most fruit bows the lowest. That reminds us of the need for humility in our time of prosperity.
So, nature and creation are reminders of who God is and who we are.
In the emphasis of the care for creation and the environment, it is also a reminder to care for each other.
It is a reminder of who we are and in whose image we are created.
In the gospel, Jesus, who is the True image of God, teaches us how to recover the beauty and the goodness of our humanity.
He teaches us the way of love, but it is the way of a hard and tough love.
Jesus teaches us to love our enemies, to do good to those who hate us, to bless those who curse us, and to pray for those who treat us badly.
That is a hard and a tough love. It goes against our disfigured and distorted tendencies.
But that way of love brings about healing and restores us to the beautiful image of God.
And nature also keeps showing us to go that way of love, if we want to be healed, if we want to be restored.
In the Chinese zodiac, this year is the “year of the snake”.
So let us see what the snake can show us. Imagine being bitten by a snake. Instead of focusing on healing from the bite, we go after the snake to find out why it bit us, and even to teach the snake a lesson so that it won't bite us again.
That may sound rather silly, but that is also how we react to those whom we don't like, or those who don't like us.
It is the way of confrontation and retaliation, but that is not the way of love, because there is no restoration, there is no reconciliation.
In the 1st reading, we hear of that moment when David had the opportunity to retaliate and to eliminate king Saul who was persecuting him.
But David held back and made this memorable statement: I will not raise my hand against the Lord's anointed.
To raise the hand, in this sense, is to harm someone.
Although David could retaliate and eliminate king Saul, he submitted to the authority of God, and respected those whom God has anointed and appointed.
We may not resort to raising our hands in violence and to harm those who dislike us or persecute us.
So, we will raise our voice in confrontation and retaliation. But it will be futile, fruitless and frustrating.
Instead of raising our voice, let us raise our minds and our hearts to God, and speak words of love.
Nature tells us that it is the rain that grows the flowers, not the thunder or the lightning.
May the flowers of God's love bloom in our lives, and bring us healing and restoration to God's image of love.
Friday, February 21, 2025
Chair of St Peter the Apostle, Saturday, 22-02-2025
Thursday, February 20, 2025
6th Week, Ordinary Time, Friday, 21-02-2025
Wednesday, February 19, 2025
6th Week, Ordinary Time, Thursday, 20-02-2025
Tuesday, February 18, 2025
6th Week, Ordinary Time, Wednesday, 19-02-2025
Monday, February 17, 2025
6th Week, Ordinary Time, Tuesday, 18-02-2025
Sunday, February 16, 2025
6th Week, Ordinary Time, Monday, 17-02-2025
Saturday, February 15, 2025
6th Ordinary Sunday, Year C, 16.02.25
Jeremiah 17:5-8 / 1 Cor 15:12, 16-20 / Luke 6:17, 20-26
The festive celebrations have finally come to an end on the 15th day which was last Wednesday.
With that, it means the popular “Lo Hei” will disappear from the menu. Anyway we also have had enough of it.
The glaring red decorations are also taken down and those New Year songs are also taken off the air.
So, it is back to life and back to reality.
But what about those well wishes that we exchanged, like, “Gong Xi Fa Cai”.
Will those well wishes turn into reality, or are they just festive formalities.
Certainly, we wish that we will be happy in the year ahead. We also wish for the good things in life, like, health and wealth.
So, we look forward for our wishes to come true, for others as well as for ourselves.
And of course, we don't want anything bad or sad to happen.
In the gospel passage, Jesus talked about happiness. But His teaching on happiness does not seem to go along with our understanding of happiness.
In fact, the teaching of Jesus on happiness is like a contradiction for us.
How can it be happy when we are hungry and sad. And why would it be bad or sad to be rich, or filled, or laughing.
This gospel message is strange, and no wonder it wasn't used for the Chinese New Year Mass, even though it has the word happiness in it.
So, what is the gospel truth here. Well, the gospel truth is this: That life is so ironic.
It takes sadness to know what happiness is, noise to appreciate silence, and absence to value presence.
But we don't like the bad and sad. In fact, we fear it. This is where faith comes in.
Fear says “what if”. But faith says “even if”.
I would like to share this story about “The last bouquet of carnations”, and for ease of narration I will narrate it in the first person.
When Mom passed away, she didn't forget to remind me of one thing.
"Mother's Day is coming. Remember to send flowers. And remember to send them every year, never forget!"
I nodded, understanding that what Mom meant was for me to send flowers to a woman named Doreen.
Doreen wasn't a relative, nor a close friend, and certainly not a regular customer. I didn’t understand why Mom was so insistent on this, even at the end of her life, making sure to remind me to send flowers to a stranger.
The older generation hold onto all sorts of illogical things, and can’t even explain why they do certain things. And yet they continue doing the same thing year after year.
Annie, who had been working in our store for a long time, said that sending flowers to Doreen had been a practice since we were little. Mom used to manage the flower shop herself. One day, a girl came in to order flowers, wanting to send them to a woman named Doreen. From that day on, Mom started sending flowers every year, even though that girl never came back and had only paid for one bouquet.
Back when Mom was the shop owner, she could send flowers to anyone she wanted, even if she didn’t get paid. But now, since Mom's health started deteriorating, I took over the flower shop.
For the past twenty years, Mom had always stuck to a certain way of doing things, never wanting to change the store. Of course, Mom was excellent at flower arranging, keeping the old customers coming, but she couldn’t attract new ones.
Sometimes, when a large client from a hotel came in, they would leave simply because we didn’t have a proper catalogue to show them.
I didn’t want our flower shop to eventually become a tourist attraction or a museum. I was planning to renovate it and get rid of some of the old habits Mom had, like giving special treatment to regular customers and their families, friends, and so on.
What could we earn from a single bouquet? How many times would a customer come back in a year? They were always trying to get something for nothing, especially when they saw a woman like Mom, so kind and naive. Everyone took advantage of her! The habit of sending flowers to Doreen seemed unnecessary too, though I had promised Mom I would continue doing it.
Annie was in a state of panic about my “big reform,” looking lost, and I could tell that if it had been Mom, her face would’ve looked just as pale.
"Are you really not going to send flowers to Doreen?" she asked.
I replied, "The flower shop is a business. If we don’t make money, you won’t even have a job!"
Annie looked around at the newly renovated flower shop, speaking hesitantly. Everything that once felt familiar seemed strange now.
Then Annie said, "I understand what you mean. Even if we don’t send flowers anymore... the last time should be done. Doreen has been receiving flowers every year, and it will be odd if no one comes this time. At least we should let her know not to wait anymore."
Her reasoning wasn’t entirely wrong. I thought at least I should go and see what kind of woman had attracted Mom to send flowers to her every year. I would explain that Mom was gone, and that the "practice" had to end.
Annie had arranged the carnations, with light purple forget-me-nots and white baby’s breath, a big beautiful bouquet. It was as lovely as it could be.
On Mother’s Day, I ran all over Singapore before finally reaching Doreen’s house, when the sun was setting.
As soon as I rang the doorbell, I heard something being knocked over inside.
An old woman with hunched shoulders and white hair opened the door.
I expected her to be surprised, thinking she would be shocked to see me instead of Mom, who had been sending flowers every year.
But she didn’t react at all. Instead, she smiled at me.
"You’re here. Come in quickly!" Her words were filled with eager excitement.
"You always come early, so I made jasmine tea, just the way you like it. But now... it’s cold." The old woman walked toward the table to pick up the teapot. "I’ll heat it up, it won’t take long."
Then I finally saw her eyes, which seemed frozen, not turning. No wonder she hadn’t "noticed" me … she can’t see me.
"Thank you, but that’s not necessary. You are Doreen, right?"
The old woman froze, gripping the teapot tightly in her hands, standing still.
"My mom has passed away. I’m here to deliver the last bouquet of flowers for her." I stepped forward and handed her the flowers.
She took the flowers excitedly, gently caressing them.
"The last bouquet of carnations? ...Thank you." She nodded and smiled, bringing the flowers close to her nose, inhaling the scent. A sudden sense of loss filled the wrinkles on her face...
Then she said, “Twenty years ago, a girl had ordered a bouquet of flowers to surprise her mother for Mother’s Day, but tragically, on the way home, a careless driver took her young life. Every year, I’ve held on just to wait for this bouquet of flowers!"
I had never imagined that such an ordinary bouquet could keep a life hanging on, a mother who had almost given up, heartbroken and blind from grief.
I realised I didn't know my Mom well.
It was already dark when I returned to the flower shop, and Annie was still there, nervously asking me: "Did you deliver the flowers? Did you explain that you won’t be sending them anymore?"
I looked at Annie, and said, "I will keep sending them. From now on, I’ll send them every day. Carnations, everyday!"
Yes, it takes sadness to know what happiness is.
But we need not fear sadness and ask “what if”.
Rather, with faith, let us say “even if”.
So, even if we are poor and hungry, let us be like carnation flowers for others.
When we can help others to be happy, then we too will be happy.
This is what our Lord Jesus promised us.